Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Regrets of the Dying

The kind of job that I have occasionally gives me the opportunity to interact with sick or injured people. 
Today, I got the chance to spend some time with a lady with breast cancer. She had no hair. She is getting chemo and will be starting to get Radiation Therapy. Her spirit was always very uplifting and she said she hasn't gotten depressed about having cancer because she has her family to fight for.
The truth is, she doesn't know how much longer she has.
It is hard to see these kinds of things in the flesh, but at the same time, it makes me think how vulnerable we are in God's eyes. Our life depends on Him and not on us. Life is truly "short".


Just last night, without knowing that I was going to meet a dying person the next day,  I came across an article that talks about the "Regrets of the Dying."* It is about a lady that worked for many years in  palliative care. Her patients were those who had gone home to die. She was with them for the last three to twelve weeks of their lives.
When questioned about any regrets they had or anything they would do differently, common themes surfaced again and again. Here are the most common five:


1I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.
This was the most common regret of all. When people realise that their life is almost over and look back clearly on it, it is easy to see how many dreams have gone unfulfilled. Most people had not honoured even a half of their dreams and had to die knowing that it was due to choices they had made, or not made.
It is very important to try and honor at least some of your dreams along the way. From the moment that you lose your health, it is too late. Health brings a freedom very few realise, until they no longer have it.

2. I wish I didn't work so hard.
This came from every male patient that she nursed. They missed their children's youth and their partner's companionship. Women also spoke of this regret. But as most were from an older generation, many of the female patients had not been breadwinners. All of the men she nursed deeply regretted spending so much of their lives on the treadmill of a work existence.

By simplifying your lifestyle and making conscious choices along the way, it is possible to not need the income that you think you do. And by creating more space in your life, you become happier and more open to new opportunities, ones more suited to your new lifestyle.

3. I wish I'd had the courage to express my feelings.
Many people suppressed their feelings in order to keep peace with others. As a result, they settled for a mediocre existence and never became who they were truly capable of becoming. Many developed illnesses relating to the bitterness and resentment they carried as a result.
We cannot control the reactions of others. However, although people may initially react when you change the way you are by speaking honestly, in the end it raises the relationship to a whole new and healthier level. Either that or it releases the unhealthy relationship from your life. Either way, you win.

4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.
Often they would not truly realise the full benefits of old friends until their dying weeks and it was not always possible to track them down. Many had become so caught up in their own lives that they had let golden friendships slip by over the years. There were many deep regrets about not giving friendships the time and effort that they deserved. Everyone misses their friends when they are dying.
It is common for anyone in a busy lifestyle to let friendships slip. But when you are faced with your approaching death, the physical details of life fall away. People do want to get their financial affairs in order if possible. But it is not money or status that holds the true importance for them. They want to get things in order more for the benefit of those they love. Usually though, they are too ill and weary to ever manage this task. It is all comes down to love and relationships in the end. That is all that remains in the final weeks, love and relationships.

5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.
This is a surprisingly common one. Many did not realise until the end that happiness is a choice.  They had stayed stuck in old patterns and habits. The so-called 'comfort' of familiarity overflowed into their emotions, as well as their physical lives. Fear of change had them pretending to others, and to their selves, that they were content. When deep within, they longed to laugh properly and have silliness in their life again.
When you are on your deathbed, what others think of you is a long way from your mind. How wonderful to be able to let go and smile again, long before you are dying.
 * Article by Bronnie Ware

I think that if I was dying right now, number 1 would be my first regret too. That article made me think about what we want to do and why we want to do it. Thankfully my husband and I are in the same path and want the same things, so we are going to work hard and try to get them with God's  help TODAY because we don't know if we are going to be here tomorrow.
We are living in the PRESENT by trying to fulfill some of our dreams today.



1 comment:

  1. Hija Querida de verdad todo lo que escribiste es cierto,por eso lo que te habia dicho antes adelante con esos suenos yo se que lo van a lograr Beatriz y me alegro mucho por ustedes,hay que vivir el dia de hoy como que fuera el ultimo,porque uno sabe que pasara manana,por eso te digo hoy lo mucho que te quiero y me siento tan orgullosa de tener una hija maravillosa y buena.

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